In talking with a very close friend of mine today...(well technically texting) she really got me to thinking about how we take our health for granted. See about a year and half ago my friend had a stroke... she was extremely stressed out over her marriage and losing her house and I just found out she was diabetic also. Here is a woman my age, our daughters grew up together...no longer able to work, drive or enjoy most of the things we use to do together. She now receives disability assistance and still does not have full mobility of her hands and legs. Her main wish now.....just to do it over again. She kept saying to me "If only I had started eating right when the doctors first told me I was diabetic". "If only I had stopped ignoring the fact that I was losing weight at a rapid pace" ...."If only..." This saddens me, because there are things about my body that I ignore.... I have headaches daily...I'm sporatic with exercising...3 days strong then 3 weeks nothing.... Climbing three flights of stairs almost wipes me out....my blood pressure is always on the high side.... so why do I still "have to have" that bag of lays chips...gotta be the regular salty ones... why do I run downstairs when I get that craving mid afternoon for that payday candy bar with the salty nuts on top.... What's so sad is for the most part, I make alot of healthy choices both for myself and my family but there's soooo much more I could do.... what am I teaching my kids-both of which want to be doctors when they are on their own. My talk today with my friend was such a very enlightening and thought provoking discussion. I really hate the fact that she is suffering now but as I told her...dark don't last always and her survival is just the testamony me and so many others need to see.
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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