I've been told in recent months that I just don't want to let go because I'm afraid of being alone. Never thought I was. As a matter of fact, I like the peace and quiet of being alone... (sometimes). It doesn't bother me at all to come home and no one's there... make me a cup of coffee, change into my favorite house outfit...(t-shirt, panties & footies) and just watch tv, or read a book. Awww the good life. I've talked to folks all day....it doesn't bother me to come home, do the check on everyone else's day and then not say too much the rest of the night. But I guess when you think about what the person said..... you know they mean on the day-to-day basis. Am I scared to sleep alone night after night? Am I scared to not have someone to share my dreams and desires with.? Am I scared to not be "boo'd up"? I guess when I think about it that way.... I am scared! OMG....I am scared. I love building towards something with someone.... going thru some rough times so we both appreciate the good times coming. I love thinking about family vacations, and planning date night, love all those things. With that being said..... do I compromise on the things that are of importance to me in the process of NOT being alone? I think that was the point of the comment in the first place. I'm running around trying to make this boo do some of the things that the last boo did.... and when it don't happen....I'm furious and hard to get along with and making it seem as though I rather be alone. But then there are days when this boo makes me feel so much better than that last old stanking boo....lol... then what? I'm so high strung, some days I don't even realize I need to strike a balance. How in the hell am I gonna do that?
Dang it's been a minute since I've blogged...Over a month. I enjoyed the 5 weeks for structured bootcamp. Something about knowing my exact schedule was exactly what I needed. Her meal plans were easy to follow although I didn't follow them on most days. In the end I didn't lose any weight but I lost 3 inches in my thighs and almost 3 inches in my waist so it was worth it to me. The first week without the camp schedule I was totally lost on what to do.....just winging it. At the job, they have opened up a nice fitness wellness center. It's the place to be right now so very overcrowded. My first experience at the beginners Zumba class was horrible.....she was so uncoordinated and appeared to not know her own routine. Yesterday I attended the Bootcamp Training Class and it was GREAT. We jogged, did squats, planks, mountain climbers, high knees and other things that had me sweating my weave out. I loved it. And although I hate to hang around till 6 after work, I think t...
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