Walking in Circles

Well yesterday.... I began AGAIN. Yes..I took to the walking trail...in full stride. Mini-Me in tow with me. For some reason, I'm always inspired when I see someone running/jogging and I always say ' hey I want to do that'..... knowing that I have to walk before I run so I walk. I know the routine....start with 3 days 30 minutes...build yourself up to your goal.... but somewhere along the lines I fizzle out. So now I begin AGAIN. For the last year, I've been so high emotionally and also so low that I had lost all motivation. Things are looking up for me.... so I vow to begin AGAIN. I want to forget the emotional ties of the past or at least to only remember the good times and build on that. Guessing It wasn't for me.....as bad as I wanted it to be...Those things weren't meant to be. Some could argue I was doomed for failure because I was too used to my comfort level..... but I want to look at it as I'm choosing to take my comfort level and take IT to another level without all the strain and stress. I begin AGAIN.

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Gray Areas...

I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...

Nothing Going On.....Nothing going down.

Long and short of it....I'm stuck with weight loss. Could be I'm not pushing myself enough...could be I'm still over-portioned....could be my metabolism... Could, Would, Should. UGH. I read alot of blogs and websites boasting people that follow some slight modification for one week and lose over 5lbs....I've never experienced that. Even in the beginning, my loss has never been over 2lbs at a time. Very frustrating because I've made alot of changes in my physical activities and eating habits. I've even helped others with their plan. Ugh. Not discouraged enough to give up but I am discouraged. I just don't want to feel like I have to give up every single thing I enjoy in life. oh well....Sunshyne Out.

My curl exactly!!

Look at this.... I'm hold ing up a strand of my own hair and a strand of weave.... can't tell can you? Nope...this hair is an exact match of my natural hair... No one can ever tell unless I tell them..it's hilarious. I love it because my hair is very thick but not as full as I would like it to be so sometimes I add in a track or two to "help" me out. I've let alot of black grow in....ALOT... lol. And it's darker than the 1b/30 weave... it's been so long since I've seen my roots in their natural stage that I just didn't even realize my hair is really black...not off black... jet black.. I love it. Thought about dying the rest but kinda feeling this.

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