I actually think my mindset is changing. Me....avid coffee-drinker....has had no problem dropping the coffee this week. Think I was drinking it more out of habit than anything. It was just part of my normal routine. And I decided to completely stop snacking and so far so good.... oh except that bite of brownie last night...my daughter decided to bake and it was just calling my name....ugh. But I'm finding that if I bring me some fruits to nibble on that I don't think of snacking... my downfall is chips...but I don't want to sabotage all the workouts I've actually done this week. I've had three active days in a row and today I will do some form of aerobic activity. Last week I only did two days or maybe it was three...hmmph all I know is it felt like a lackluster performance week. Now I know that weekdays are not my problem...the real test will be the weekend. We always eat out on the weekend....always. Fridays especially....But whether I do or not...I will at least continue to do the exercise and it'll only be one meal instead of the usual three meals on the go...oh lawd we were horrible. Small changes. One step at a time... I'll continue to build on it.
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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