So I'm going to attempt to start back writing my thoughts. Yesterday was Day 1 of a weight intervention program I signed up for thru the job called Prevent. Before the 16-weeks started, they sent me a digital scale which will send my weight in daily thru wifi connection. So yesterday I weighed in at 213.8 and I took my measurements. Just the mere fact that I will need to step on the scale every morning may just be the thing I need to act right the day before...and not just because I'm stepping on the scale because I was doing that every day anyway....but now it's being sent into the world wide atmosphere... that little ticker that shows how close I am to my goals will bobble up and down if my weight goes up and down. I like that added motivation. Game On. Despite that fact, my weekend activities was riddled with food I didn't need. So this morning I was up one pound....(which I plan to drop right on back off by tomorrow..lol) I expect to continue to follow low carb eating but to not have a nibble here and there of non-compliant items. We shall see.
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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