I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking forward to sharing your day and hearing about his? What about the little flirting you exchange throughout the day? I could go on and on....but I hear some of my friends..."Girl, that passion ain't gone pay NO bills". True but that's where the balance comes in. A man that truly loves you will make sure you're taken care of regardless. Although I can be independent, I desire a man to take charge and take his rightful place and handle the things that I can't and also step in and handle some things that I CAN handle but just because he's the man..... he got it. Fairy tale ...hmmm maybe...but hey I'm redefining what love means to me. Changing my gray area to either black or white. And that may very well mean being on my own. Which is fine also...cause guess who's rules I live by then? Yep!!! Live By My Own Rules!
Ok my confession first; I didn’t work out much last week…..three days. I let life give me excuses and I used ‘em. I am, however, still eating according to plan for the most part and still dropping pounds and inches. Although this is a 3-week program, I really don’t plan to stop…. since the goal is to adapt to the habits as my normal way of eating I will simply continue. I still give kudos to the program because I was at a major plateau. Although this is simply a program of portion control and timely eating… it’s presented in a way that makes it understandable in a market that is just overwhelmed with "get-skinny-fast" schemes. Tools are provided that helps you to see visually the perfect balance of nutrients to fuel and nourish your body. And you can’t beat a 30 minute but still effective workout. I’ve found that I can even “stray” and still see a drop on the scale. Friday night, I went out to eat my all-time favorite meal of Mexican fare. I almost always order a large...
Living by your own rules.
ReplyDeleteIt's YOUR life, I commend you.