Ever had that nagging feeling that you should be doing something more with your life? Nothing's wrong with how life is now, but hmmm I wanna do more. Something I enjoy doing that could also produce a lil income. Something but what? Now mind you, I know there are business ventures I can dwelve into, everyone think their product will sell itself, everyone will tell you how easy joining them will be, everyone say just give it a try. But for some strange reason it just don't feel like what I want to do. I'm at such a content but unsatisfied point in my life. I've dabbled in a few things - all with the hope of "Taking OFF"...lol... and there are days when I think that what I'm suppose to be doing should be chariable and not money producing... that maybe I'm just missing that fulfillment. idk...usually writing out my feelings help me see some things clearer but lately it hasn't. All I'm set to do is be a wife and mother right now.... something's missing. But how do I figure out what.?
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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