OMG...I am about to lay my head down and fall out right here on this desk. My energy level is ZERO!! I have been reading alot about maintaining sugar levels to avoid this sluggish feeling that I always get after lunch. Today I broke all the rules and ate a slice of BBQ pizza...loaded down with chicken. It was very good. Now I might have saved a little face if I wouldn't have swung around to the fried food section and grabbed a serving of tater tots. What's so sad is I know I didn't need them and after I made it back to eat them ...they really wasn't that good and was fried too hard. I'm going back to keeping my daily log ..it makes me accountable to mainly myself. I have "creeped" back up to 250lbs and I REFUSE to get any higher. People admire my confidence in my sexy body even at my weight....so before I lose that confidence I got to make changes back to eating healthy and exercising again. My iron has been better this week. I'm going to take advantage of that....
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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