I start over every Monday.... yep. Every Sunday evening I convince myself that this week will be different... starting Monday...I'm going to work out everyday for 30 minutes.... starting Monday, I'm not going to eat any white carbs this week. I'm going to do situps each night before I go to bed.....YUP starting Monday....It's on.! Whatever keeps me going. Even if I only make it to Wednesday...I figure that 3 days out of the week that I was motivated....better than zero days... so sue me.
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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