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Sheer Determination....

"Ain't Nothing to it but to do it"...."Only thing keeping you from your goal is YOU"...yes I know all the catch phrases...all the right things to say to myself to boost up my determination. And this year I think I have done it to myself long enough. I am sooooo focused on me now. For years upon years I worried about making everyone happy but myself...I mean I knew I would be content in the process but was I really happy all these years. I'm not sure. I will NEVER be a skinny girl...don't even want to be...Love my curves...but love my LIFE more...and right now I'm unhealthy...I am running on sheer determination to change that fact. I will not stop till I feel healthy...till I am no longer on ANY medication for making bad decisions in the past. I read I should have at least 30 minutes of exercise 3xper week....well that will get me nowhere...so I'm shooting for minimum 30 minutes on 5 days... and I said minimum because 30 minutes is nothing.... I also learned that as we get older we kinda get "settling weight"...I refuse to be that. I AM NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE NOR WILL I SETTLE.  Thought I needed folks to join me on this journey....yeah that would be nice to have but even if I don't I'm in this for myself even if by myself......
Lovingly always,
Sunshyne Out.

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