This week I started taking a vitamin supplement and so I've had some extra umph and shake in my dance during class. I hope that equates to pounds dropped on the scale but I don't feel it does. Guess I'm so use to staying at the same point on the scale that I don't even expect more even though I'm working hard to adapt new habits. I have a looooonnnng way to go. Not having sweets is almost second nature now....so is having bread....I can do without it with no problem. Chips that's another story...lol. And although we don't eat out as often now, if someone ask me to go out I will and my decision at the restaurant will not be good....at all. But I'm determined....I will gradually and eventually get better.
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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