I love receiving compliments....I mean damn I am a girly girl. But you can best believe your compliment doesn't define me or swell my head....and if you wanna know why - it's cause I know I be looking my best. I love who I am and how I look. I take pride in how I leave the house each morning...(well usually...I mean we all have fuck-it dayz...) I know there are guys who think thick-misses need a confidence boost...but naw dude that chick ain't me. I'm pretty good at discerning the compliment tho. Weight and Low Self Esteem does NOT live together in my body. Just because I'm overweight doesn't mean I'm ashamed or uncomfortable with my body. Naw boo.....move the fuck on. My level of confidence in myself is thru the roof...so you will get no thanks for boosting my ego. Some call it arrogance... but I'm not running around pushing myself on folks...I'm very approachable and friendly to everyone...men and women alike. "She walk like she all that" ...yes bitch I AM ALL DAT and a bag of chips...lol....stfu. I not pushing all this thick and curvy shit either...no I say get healthy. Yes embrace your curves and extra padding but take care of your body... I'm working hard to get healthier and get the body that I WANT.... not what everyone or anyone else wants me to have. ok....now I'm singing..."It's too big, too wide, too strong, it won't fit, too much, too tough.... I walk like this cause I can back it up.....I got a big ego...such a huge ego"
I'm experiencing "grey areas" in my life right now. Yes I am still separated and not divorced. Yes I still technically have a live-in boyfriend and a husband. And yes they both want to be a major part of my life. And unfortunately, I want to be a part of both of their lives but realize that can't happen. Initial sparks wear out and reality sets in..... just in my case sparks can go on a long time usually after sexual and emotional connections have gotten way too deep. Right now I'm taking the time to redefine love in my life. Love means something different to each person. I realize in talking to different friends on a day-to-day basis...that we all view relationships differently. Some women think that as long as he's a provider, they can put up with anything. To me money is not everything, what about the desire to be in your partner's presence? What about having that indescribable feeling when you get that hug at the end of the day? What about looking f...
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ReplyDeleteDon't we all -- you go girl =].
Keep doing your thing!
Kimberly, FWB