Boss Diva Fitness

"Ain't Nothing to it but to do it"...."Only thing keeping you from your goal is YOU"...yes I know all the catch phrases...all the right things to say to myself to boost up my determination. And this year I think I have done it to myself long enough. I am sooooo focused on me now. For years upon years I worried about making everyone happy but myself...I mean I knew I would be content in the process but was I really happy all these years. I'm not sure. I will NEVER be a skinny girl...don't even want to be...Love my curves...but love my LIFE more...and right now I'm unhealthy...I am running on sheer determination to change that fact. I will not stop till I feel healthy...till I am no longer on ANY medication for making bad decisions in the past. I read I should have at least 30 minutes of exercise 3xper week....well that will get me nowhere...so I'm shooting for minimum 30 minutes on 5 days... and I said minimum because 30 minutes is nothing.... I a...

Look at this.... I'm hold ing up a strand of my own hair and a strand of weave.... can't tell can you? Nope...this hair is an exact match of my natural hair... No one can ever tell unless I tell them..it's hilarious. I love it because my hair is very thick but not as full as I would like it to be so sometimes I add in a track or two to "help" me out. I've let alot of black grow in....ALOT... lol. And it's darker than the 1b/30 weave... it's been so long since I've seen my roots in their natural stage that I just didn't even realize my hair is really black...not off black... jet black.. I love it. Thought about dying the rest but kinda feeling this.

I actually worked out 5 of the last 7 days.... a feat in itself for me. I been doing really good ... compared to my past. YAY me. I'm even trying to start back getting up at 5:30am to get in my workout.... thinking that if I put forth the effort to workout in the am then even if "life" gets in the way in the evening, I've still gotten in some aerobic activity. Only thing is it's hard to do Billy Blanks Bootcamp at 5:30....so the last two days I've done WATP 3 mile powerwalk. Almost like Billy is too intense for so early in the morning.... I know ALL mental but give me a few days...ugh I'm getting there. I was hurting for days after Bootcamp but still mustered thru the next. Now as far as eating... my first step in the RIGHT DIRECTION was portion controlled lunches. I have not been down to buy anything from the Kay Kafe but instead have been bringing frozen lunches...be it still processed which I hope to get away from soon but dang one step at a time. This ...

I actually think my mindset is changing. Me....avid coffee-drinker....has had no problem dropping the coffee this week. Think I was drinking it more out of habit than anything. It was just part of my normal routine. And I decided to completely stop snacking and so far so good.... oh except that bite of brownie last night...my daughter decided to bake and it was just calling my name....ugh. But I'm finding that if I bring me some fruits to nibble on that I don't think of snacking... my downfall is chips...but I don't want to sabotage all the workouts I've actually done this week. I've had three active days in a row and today I will do some form of aerobic activity. Last week I only did two days or maybe it was three...hmmph all I know is it felt like a lackluster performance week. Now I know that weekdays are not my problem...the real test will be the weekend. We always eat out on the weekend....always. Fridays especially....But whether I do or not...I will at least ...

Not only do I have to plan when it comes to getting healthy but I have to set aside some time to plan this plan. I can't just aimlessly go to the grocery store...I have to plan the meals for the week and then go...otherwise when I'm in the kitchen without all my healthy choices then I just have to grab the chips or fry french fries instead...you know I have to. And if I don't sit down to plan my week out, then I'll be running late each morning with my normal dress routine and not have time to cook or prepare my healthy thought out breakfast and just be forced to stop at Mickey D for a McGriddle or head down to the Kay Kafe for grits, eggs, and fatback bacon.... see that's what happen to me when I fail to plan. If I continue to fail to plan then I am setting myself up for failure. No doubt. So next time I'm chillax'n watching a lil tube, I'll break out the planner and a pen and make it a productive hour. Sunshyne Out.

I'm going to adapt the principles of the South Beach plan AGAIN. Starting Monday (lol) I was really inspired by a few articles I read on yesterday and remembered the success I've had before so I am going to follow my doctor's advice and use the SB method. I am going to strike the word diet out of my vocabulary because as I learned this is a way of life....has to be adopted for life. I started out with one blood pressure pill, but since the surgery I am now taking 6 YES 6. It's ridiculous...I hate it. So why keep promising myself that each Monday I'll do better.... It's time to do better. It's like turning on the water faucet expecting to see orange juice. I keep turning on the same damn faucet knowing damn well no orange juice coming out.... time to do something different if I want to see something different. Yay me. Stay tuned....but after this weekend cuz you know how we do...eat all the bad stuff this weekend since we gonna start fresh on Monday. Always M...