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Fear vs Faith

It takes courage to act on mere faith or giving the benefit of the doubt to someone. It takes a lot of courage to act on concrete evidence too, but the amount needed to act on a tenet of faith...well, it definitely means stepping out of one's comfort zone. It usually gets ridiculed because some people ridicule what they are too afraid, too lazy, too proud, or too hateful to do. It's much easier to attack faith than have it. It's the big cop out. I base my future off of concrete evidence, past experiences, and things I have no doubt in receiving. That’s kinda saying I have no faith….right? But I believe in some things just working out…. That’s kinda saying I do have faith…right? I don’t look at my bills and just hope somehow they’re going to be paid, or believe that surely some money is going to come from somewhere…. When it’s time to think about how my bills are going to be paid….I only look at what I have, or expect to receive within a short period of time…. I never believ

Ignoring The Signs...

In talking with a very close friend of mine today...(well technically texting) she really got me to thinking about how we take our health for granted. See about a year and half ago my friend had a stroke... she was extremely stressed out over her marriage and losing her house and I just found out she was diabetic also. Here is a woman my age, our daughters grew up together...no longer able to work, drive or enjoy most of the things we use to do together. She now receives disability assistance and still does not have full mobility of her hands and legs. Her main wish now.....just to do it over again. She kept saying to me "If only I had started eating right when the doctors first told me I was diabetic".  "If only I had stopped ignoring the fact that I was losing weight at a rapid pace" ...."If only..." This saddens me, because there are things about my body that I ignore.... I have headaches daily...I'm sporatic with exercising...3 days strong then 3 w

It's OK if you have to Walk Away.

Awww remember when you first met? Remember that teenage giddy feeling...remember how you felt when he first said he loved you or vice versa.... but what if you can no longer remember why you're there in the first place, if it's just not working, how can you stay together? Truly. How? I’m seeing this situation in two very close friends of mine and it makes me look at my own situation and evaluate that I’m in a relationship for the right reasons. Your partner does not have to be abusing you or neglecting you or doing or not doing anything in particular. Relationships end. I realize this is NOT the fairy tale we’re made to believe as a growing princess but relationships are hard work, right? I don’t know if I buy that.... love shouldn’t be hard work, love shouldn’t be painful.... and if it is then it’s time to re-evaluate. And when you know it’s over, you are wasting yourself and your time, not to mention your partner and his time when you stick around instead of exposing it for

Scared To Be Alone?

I've been told in recent months that I just don't want to let go because I'm afraid of being alone. Never thought I was. As a matter of fact, I like the peace and quiet of being alone... (sometimes). It doesn't bother me at all to come home and no one's there... make me a cup of coffee, change into my favorite house outfit...(t-shirt, panties & footies) and just watch tv, or read a book. Awww the good life. I've talked to folks all day....it doesn't bother me to come home, do the check on everyone else's day and then not say too much the rest of the night. But I guess when you think about what the person said..... you know they mean on the day-to-day basis. Am I scared to sleep alone night after night? Am I scared to not have someone to share my dreams and desires with.? Am I scared to not be "boo'd up"? I guess when I think about it that way.... I am scared! OMG....I am scared. I love building towards something with someone.... going t

Desparate Bitches!!

What ever happened to the high standards of women? Why are so many females stooping to new lows to find, get or keep a man? Nowadays men don't even have to work hard to get the nookie.... lately I've been running into a few females that don't even care when it's obvious that the man is TAKEN. And on the rare occasion that you're with a good decent man who instead of hurting females feelings choose to attempt to remain friends, why is it so hard for women to separate the two. (Even tho you warned him.  He wouldn't heed your warning that this trick was after him...lol).  Now us good girls, trying to do as Patsy Cline says and stand by our man are perceived as insecure or weak-minded simply because we get tired of the antics and finally blow off some steam. Now for you ladies that's yelling at me to not be blinded by HIS tactics, trust me I'm not. I fully believe that the main chick should deal with the nigga she with NOT the female throwing salt or the fe
This is my A.D.D. picture as my daughter calls it. "Awww look a butterfly.... now what were we talking about". This pictures reminds me to FOCUS. This weekend I want to direct my focus inward and do something that makes me feel good. Not sure what that is yet...any suggestions welcome. I want to encourage others to do the same. If you keep trying to be everything to everybody, you'll become nothing good for yourself.

New Beginnings (AGAIN...LOL)

What's up everyone. I decided to start afresh.... delete old blog, get my mind a tad bit clearer, and try to get some direction in life. But I quickly realized that writing is a great way to clear some thoughts, sooooo here I am again. Since I'm dealing with all angles of me...I'm going to revist some old napptural photos - Des here baby iz wherez I come from....